This is my outlet . . .

Last night, I was reading a blog by one of my law professors,

 who is one of my biggest inspirations,

and I became somewhat disheartened.  He was talking about student blogs and how so many of them were all the same thing, and there were very few that he would recommend, and I noticed the ones he did recommend were all very legal.  

Because I look up to this particular professor so much,

 I started doubting myself.  

I was thinking how my blog is just kinda my thoughts and there is not much depth or any importance to it.

But then, I thought, "No!!! This blog is my outlet!!!

 I think and read and experience law all day everyday!

I want to be a human too!  I want to carry on about somewhat meaningless things at times and talk about my feelings and music, things I am passionate about apart from the law!"

Clearly, I am passionate about the law, above most things! 

 I would not spend 13 hours in one day in the school, 

studying property of all things, if I weren't!

There are so many issues out there that I love to discuss, mainly immigration and death penalty type issues, but that is what I do here, all the time.  

I titled this blog, Inter Alia, which means, among other things, because I wanted it to be a place for the OTHER THINGS!

Someday, I might also start a blog about legal matters, social issues, 

human rights and the like. 

But for now, this is my place to vent, and feel free.

So, to my lovely dear professor (and I truly mean that) who inspired this blog, if you read it,

 you might not learn anything of substance, or any new legal theories.

But you will learn about me.  Who I am, how I feel, what makes me tick.

And for now, that is my only goal :)

And the Insanity Begins . . .

Finals start . . . NOW!!!!!

It is like, the most insane thing!

You spend ALL semester studying, reading, prepping

for 1 test,

1 test that is your total grade for that class!!!

Talk about PRESSURE!!! 

I have been a little crazy lately!

I miss people,

 I have been spending every evening with my books.

At least my cats are great company!!!!

So, I am going to take some time to focus on things that make my heart smile :)

I dream of taking a trip to the UK passing after the bar exam!!!!!!

This is how I picture it: 

Green, Wet, Beautiful, Alone, Enchanting

I dream of traipsing about the English countryside

with Mr. Darcy or Heathcliffe 

I picture myself sitting 

in an Irish pub, 

watching the rain through the window

and feeling completely content.

( I did this all the time . . .

I thought they were racing!)

I am also looking forward to this summer! 

I have no clue what I am doing yet, 

but that is exciting!

I want a perfect, paid legal job  

I also want summer romance!!!!! 

THIS is Exactly What I am 

Dreaming of, Hoping for, Anticipating, Desiring . . 

Summer sunsets, building our own personal soundtrack, holding hands, picnics, wildflowers,

taking pictures, reading, discussing, debating,

 live music and dancing. 

EPIC.

Can it Happen?????

I am challenging myself, 

starting now, to be

 more open, vulnerable, and available.

Why does this scare me so much????

I think it is my greatest fear!

I am ready to see where curiosity can lead me . . .

Sometimes . . .

The heart just wants what it wants

Sometimes . . .

We burn, we pine, we perish

Sometimes,

We just can't make 

sense of things

Sometimes . . .  

   Our Hearts feel things

that we can never, ever say . . .

Sometimes . . .

No one understands

Sometimes . . .

You feel like there is no hope.

And Yet . . . . . . . .

No matter how much we try to resist, 

no matter how much we "know better",

at some point . . .

we start to give in. 

Because as much as we think we are 

cynical, bitter, and broken;

Hope creeps through, 

Desire breaks the skin, 

Passion cannot be quenched

And One Final Thought:

(I hope it's great . . . I'm really nervous!)

Spring Break is Over

Have you ever woke up at 3:00 in the morning, thinking about someone that you just can't get out of your brain?

It's like when a song gets stuck in your head and plays over and over and over . . . but it's not a song, just a name and a face that you wish you were with.

I want my head and heart to be clear.  I don't want to let people in anymore unless they pursue me and beg to be let in.    I tend to give away pieces of my heart so easy.  Especially to the wounded,  I long to take care of them.  I need to wait for someone who wants to take care of me. 

This is especially true. 

 You could be my inspiration, my music, my entertainment, my lighter side, my fun.

I could be your stability, your comfort, your reason, your soft place to fall.

A Tribute to Zooey . . .

SOOOOO . . .  I am sitting on the front porch in a shabby white rocking chair with the sun shining and a nice breeze blowing and listening to the new She & Him album, Volume 2.

                                                         

I have kindly included a link, so you too can have a listen!

And this has inspired in me a need to share my love for the amazing Zooey Deschanel

I am just going to go ahead and assume that you have all seen (500) Days of Summer, since it is the best movie released last year and one of my current obsessions.

(If you think the movie is great, the soundtrack will blow your mind!)

So, accordingly, you should at least know Ms. Deschanel (Gibbard) as Summer.  If not, she has also starred in Yes Man w/ Jim Carrey, The Happening w/ Mark Walberg, and many other films such as her screen-stealing role in Almost Famous.

But her acting alone is not what inspires such devotion from me.  

For one, she is an actress and musician that actually makes

good, quality music.

Also, she is married to THE Ben Gibbard, 

which lets me know she has 

wonderful taste and appreciates quality men.

I think she is one lucky girl!

One of her defining characteristics is her unique style.  

She is a fashion icon for the unconventional, like me!

Lastly, awhile back I found these adorable pics of her apartment!!!  

I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE getting to see how my favorite stars decorate!!!!!