I did something tonight that I never do . . .

I RAN!

I, Ambria Adkins, a not a runner.  But I did it.

And I am proud. 

(I love this quote, and this movie!)

When I got home, I did a few exercises with hand weights and then some yoga poses that felt super great!!!

My body feels so good right now, I am inspired for tomorrow!

Honest Talk About Weight Loss

Fridays are my weigh-in day.  

After 9 days on Weight Watchers, I had lost 3.5 lbs, which I am happy with because healthy results are 1-2 lbs a week lost.

I did some calculations, and if I stay on the program, and keep up with the 2 lbs a week rate, I should be at my ideal weight by June, which is when I am going to Korea for a summer study abroad trip :)

(I am extra-inspired to lose weight before going to Korea because I do not want to be known as the "fat American"!!)

Now for some honest talk: I have had another break-through.

I have been making progress and felt good about my progress.

However, today was terrible!!!!!!!

I am on a weekend getaway with some law school friends, and today I totally binged on food. 

I thought to myself "I am on vacation, I can have a cheat day!"

But here is where the break-through comes in:

I feel so miserable now, and all I can think is

 "No food is worth this feeling!!"

I literally feel like I am waddling every time I move.

I feel like I am going to blow up.  

After 9 days on watching portions, eating feeling food, and feeling good, this is terrible!!!!!

And so, I am even more inspired to stay on my program.  The couple of minutes  of pleasure I feel when I am eating crappy, large amounts of food is vastly outweighed by the terrible, uncomfortable, bloated feeling I am feeling now!!!!

Weight Watchers

In my last post, I talked about my struggle to lose weight and the changes I want to make in this new year!

The way I have decided to do that is by using Weight Watchers Online.  

I decided to do the online program because my schedule is hectic and I didn't want to add meetings to it and as a student, I am always on my computer anyway.  

I have been trying many of the Smart Ones frozen meals. 

I am almost always pleasantly surprised by how good these meals taste!!!  

They honestly do not taste like diet food!  I think the thing that makes them helpful for me is the predetermined portions.  The food tastes good and I enjoy it, but when it is gone, it is gone and I can't keep over-eating. 

As an avid breakfast lover, my favorite Smart One meal is the Morning Express meal with eggs, potatoes, cheese and ham.  

It is delicious!!!

There are also AMAZING deserts that are 3 points each!  The Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough Sundae is the best treat on earth!!!

New Year . . . New Me

Every year, during the month of January, everyone talks about change.

It is a cliche, and often the "changes" are done, and old habits have resumed before the month even ends.

That is why I cringe at even writing this post.

However, for awhile now, something has been very unsettled in my soul:

I am not Happy with Me. 

Now, that does not mean I don't like anything about myself.

Quite the contrary, as I do like most things about me.

Things I like:

My eyes,

My hair,

The fact that I am never afraid to speak my opinion, 

My obnoxious laugh and loud voice, 

My smile, 

The fact I am tough enough to be in law school, 

etc.

And I love my friends more than anything, and they like me,

so clearly I am not half bad.  

But there is one thing that I LOATHE about myself, 

and that is my body.

(it was hard for me to find pictures as examples, because I try to take as many "face only" pics as possible)

This is really hard for me to say that and put it out there.  

It seems too negative and I have always thought that if I don't draw attention

to my weight and body problems, then no one will notice

(Yeah, right!! Get your head out of the sand!)

I am forcing myself to be extremely honest and real in this blog post, because once

I have put this out there, I can't take it back.

I have to do something about it.

And I have come to that point that I have often heard you must come to before real change occurs:

I CANNOT GO ON DOING WHAT I HAVE BEEN DOING AND BE HAPPY AT THE SAME TIME.

My only option now is change.  

I do have a plan, and I will write further blog posts in the coming days detailing my plan

(part of the plan is to blog the experience, for acountability!)

Another Rant . . .

So, I am watching E! News and I just saw the most ridiculous thing and immediately thought

"I must write about this!"

First, Kanye West was on talking about his new album.

He talked about taking a year off and his new album which he is really proud of. 

He even has a song that includes vocals by Rihanna, Elton John, Alicia Keyes and John Legend.

The story talked about how he had spent the last year apologizing for the Taylor Swift debacle

and when asked about it, 

He was very honest and talked about how

he made a mistake even though he meant it with good intentions and people have reacted to him like he killed someone.  I giggled to myself because I thought "He is dead on, the media treated him like he killed someone!!! Yes, he was rude and thoughtless, but in all reality it was not THAT big of a deal."

THEN THE NEXT STORY CAME!!!!!!

The VERY NEXT STORY was about how in the wake of Charlie Sheen's latest situation with the hookers and cocaine and trashed hotel room, his fans still have not turned on him.

SERIOUSLY?!?!?!?!?!??!

Kanye interrupts an award speech and has to take a year off and try to rebuild his image.

Charlie Sheen has repeatedly been caught with hookers and drugs

and he will not lose a day of work, UNLESS he is in prison!!!!!

I THINK THIS IS INSANE!!!!!!

What is the weird hold Charlie Sheen has over America??????

HE IS A LOSER!!!!!  

At least Kanye does not have 4 children that are affected by all of his actions!

If I had to choose, I would choose Kanye over Charlie Sheen any day!!!

Any that is my rant!

Love, 

Ambria Monique

Gossip Girl Monday!!!

I have a huge, overwhelming, awful 

paper due a week from today.  

So instead of thinking 

about it, I am going to

 write about something 

near and dear to my 

heart . . .

There is a new episode of Gossip Girl on TONIGHT!!!

Last week, as per my usual monday night ritual, I worked on my homework until 9:00 p.m.

I got all comfortable and settled in my bed, 

turned my TV to the CW and ALAS!

Gossip Girl was a rerun.

Tonight, it is back and so is Jenny!

I cannot wait to see what Blair has in store for Little J!

I know that many people might disagree with this, but . . .

I am not mad at Chuck for what happened last season with Jenny!!!

My love Chuck was sad and 

heartbroken (and drunk)

He thought he had lost Blair forever!! 

And then Jenny showed up 

and totally went after it!

I was so devastated when Chuck tried

to propose and was interrupted 

by Dan punching him in the face!

Peonies and the Empire State Building

Chuck and Blair are my favorite couple ever.

The writers have said that they are and will remain to be the main couple of the show, 

so I have complete faith in the fact that they will get back together. 

I do also like when they are at war as well, because it takes a very high level of passion to hate someone that much, haha!

Chuck Bass is my favorite character on TV. 

He has become such a better man since being with Blair.  

They are a beautiful example of two extremely flawed people who truly bring out the best in each other.  

Happy, Happy, Happy . . .

THIS . . . 

is all I can think about right now!!!!

I should be concentrating on my 

massive appellate brief . . 

Instead