I did something tonight that I never do . . .

I RAN!

I, Ambria Adkins, a not a runner.  But I did it.

And I am proud. 

(I love this quote, and this movie!)

When I got home, I did a few exercises with hand weights and then some yoga poses that felt super great!!!

My body feels so good right now, I am inspired for tomorrow!

Honest Talk About Weight Loss

Fridays are my weigh-in day.  

After 9 days on Weight Watchers, I had lost 3.5 lbs, which I am happy with because healthy results are 1-2 lbs a week lost.

I did some calculations, and if I stay on the program, and keep up with the 2 lbs a week rate, I should be at my ideal weight by June, which is when I am going to Korea for a summer study abroad trip :)

(I am extra-inspired to lose weight before going to Korea because I do not want to be known as the "fat American"!!)

Now for some honest talk: I have had another break-through.

I have been making progress and felt good about my progress.

However, today was terrible!!!!!!!

I am on a weekend getaway with some law school friends, and today I totally binged on food. 

I thought to myself "I am on vacation, I can have a cheat day!"

But here is where the break-through comes in:

I feel so miserable now, and all I can think is

 "No food is worth this feeling!!"

I literally feel like I am waddling every time I move.

I feel like I am going to blow up.  

After 9 days on watching portions, eating feeling food, and feeling good, this is terrible!!!!!

And so, I am even more inspired to stay on my program.  The couple of minutes  of pleasure I feel when I am eating crappy, large amounts of food is vastly outweighed by the terrible, uncomfortable, bloated feeling I am feeling now!!!!

Weight Watchers

In my last post, I talked about my struggle to lose weight and the changes I want to make in this new year!

The way I have decided to do that is by using Weight Watchers Online.  

I decided to do the online program because my schedule is hectic and I didn't want to add meetings to it and as a student, I am always on my computer anyway.  

I have been trying many of the Smart Ones frozen meals. 

I am almost always pleasantly surprised by how good these meals taste!!!  

They honestly do not taste like diet food!  I think the thing that makes them helpful for me is the predetermined portions.  The food tastes good and I enjoy it, but when it is gone, it is gone and I can't keep over-eating. 

As an avid breakfast lover, my favorite Smart One meal is the Morning Express meal with eggs, potatoes, cheese and ham.  

It is delicious!!!

There are also AMAZING deserts that are 3 points each!  The Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough Sundae is the best treat on earth!!!

New Year . . . New Me

Every year, during the month of January, everyone talks about change.

It is a cliche, and often the "changes" are done, and old habits have resumed before the month even ends.

That is why I cringe at even writing this post.

However, for awhile now, something has been very unsettled in my soul:

I am not Happy with Me. 

Now, that does not mean I don't like anything about myself.

Quite the contrary, as I do like most things about me.

Things I like:

My eyes,

My hair,

The fact that I am never afraid to speak my opinion, 

My obnoxious laugh and loud voice, 

My smile, 

The fact I am tough enough to be in law school, 

etc.

And I love my friends more than anything, and they like me,

so clearly I am not half bad.  

But there is one thing that I LOATHE about myself, 

and that is my body.

(it was hard for me to find pictures as examples, because I try to take as many "face only" pics as possible)

This is really hard for me to say that and put it out there.  

It seems too negative and I have always thought that if I don't draw attention

to my weight and body problems, then no one will notice

(Yeah, right!! Get your head out of the sand!)

I am forcing myself to be extremely honest and real in this blog post, because once

I have put this out there, I can't take it back.

I have to do something about it.

And I have come to that point that I have often heard you must come to before real change occurs:

I CANNOT GO ON DOING WHAT I HAVE BEEN DOING AND BE HAPPY AT THE SAME TIME.

My only option now is change.  

I do have a plan, and I will write further blog posts in the coming days detailing my plan

(part of the plan is to blog the experience, for acountability!)